My Daddy Knows Me.

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."(Psalm 37:4). I believe I've heard this verse quoted a million times in regards to marriage. While I don't doubt that it's true in that case, my Lord's shown me that it's also true for me RIGHT NOW.

Since i was a child I've wanted to serve the poor, widowed, and orphaned. Then, when I was 16 my heart beat turned to women who are in sexual slavery, forced into prostitution because of economic need, and sold by families who had no other option. This has been a dream that has never seemed plausible, even as I began looking into God's glorious heart for every ethne I held this dream in the palm of my hand, very much expecting for it to change or be removed.

"Take the coal, touch my lips, I am yours."

My Daddy knows me though, and my heart beats from His own. As he gives me the BEST gifts He's presented me with the opportunity to live my dream: Proclaiming His Holy name & empowering women, girls, & boys to hold occupations that don't require the selling of one's body. I'm blessed TO GO; specifically to Phenom Penh, Cambodia for 2 years beginning in late Aug/early Sept God willing!

For Writings Sake

I used to write here regularly, then i stopped (obviously). It's not because I don't have anything to say, in fact I feel the Lord's constantly blasting me with super-important bits of wisdom and insight that I sometimes easily let slide right past me before nailing them down, staring them in the face, and soaking up their truth. It's also not because no one reads this (I don't publicize it). I believe I stopped writing because... I became lazy and scared that someone would find out I blog, and read it only to find it horrifically awful.

Anyways, long rant short -> I feel like writing very badly right now so I'll begin.

The Lord's provision has been on my mind a lot recently; He's been showing up and boldly proclaiming that He can provide. Whether that's paying the bills of someone who just started tithing, or sending His people exactly where He wants them: There is no need to worry or be anxious as He will glorify Himself and provide everything needed.

Also: After being reunited with great friends who exude Prov 27:17 in my life, I've noticed myself pulling away and seeking solitude because I can't handle the pain of missing so many people, constantly. I don't believe this is right, fair, or okay and God slapped me in the face with this today: Love is simple, it fights for, rebukes, disciplines, points to Christ - ALWAYS. So as I claim to love masses, I have to question whether I really LOVE them or just love them in the cheesy & easy Hollywood way.

I feel like these thoughts aren't completely hashed out, but honestly I'm okay with that because with this you can see my writing exposed in it's natural state.

Love by Christs Strength & Grace,
Heather

P.S: Check out Mary Slessor's biography - it's epically awesome.